MENG.....chauw! LOL this is fun

kajang..

HOT!! PANAS!! whats wrong with the weather sia.. @ @

anyway, today as usual we (cyew, eric siam ,bee n i) went to the library after class for group study XD stoning teckwe .. "jemur nyawa" Cyew.. and

fatt hao bee.. lolz

Then suddenly Cyew said " weh lets go kajang eat satay..."

and...

..here we are, kajang seri sth lols.. total madness sia all the sudden go kajang eat satay under the hot sun, with my darling jessica and sara *sara dropped on the floor! T T*

well anyway, kajang satay was nice.. lol especially the abc, super big!

29th of April

its been a year now for this undesired misery.. end it pls =D

Well some of u MIGHT know what it means =)

nineteen.. finally ?

it's 23rd of april already.. sigh..

18 years old is really a tough year for me, most of u may dream of being 18 for u will be legal for so many stuff lol but seriously this is really a year where all the bad things happened. no joke, its like all the unwanted, the worst , the ugliest stuff fall on me. Not to mention going into university life, and campus life is really.. not fun. For those, who are about to leave home for studies, you should apprieciate the times u have with ur family and friends.

This year really had changed my life alot. To be honest, the life im living now is not the one i'd prepared for, at least not the one of me being single. i thought time could heal and pain would fade away, but seems like it's proven wrong as my heart could never heal from the last incident. She really had a deep cut on me. Of course i do hope to get rid of this pain, but i tried, so hard to forget, to replace, but ended up back to square one. u once said that we are still best friends, and i trusted u on that, but to realized that in the end only me who was doing all the job really made me so dissapointed and how much i wished that u never say such words that would make me feels better for the moment but suffers since then. aikz always got emo touching this topic =P

Oh ya, seriously Engineering sucks! it is hard joining a field which u don't really have any interest on it. i was too stupid back then to think that having SLIGHT interest on physic and mathematic would lead u to the world of engineering, and also an engineer would match a lawyer better =S
So as a result, this is me now living the consiquences of my decisions, becoming good friends with velocity, momentum, differentiation and more @ @ But of course engineering is not THAAAAT bad, sometimes still ok la, just that the stress on u is really heavy.. lol seriously all the best to me in the future sia = =" hopefully i dont end up selling Fried kuey tiao at Penang XD

What does birthday means to me anyway, i dont really celebrate it. Of course it does mean alot when ur friends and families come wishing u "happy birthday" and u will reply saying "thx alot", making wish etc etc lol.. but if birthday wish really comes true, i would hope that everyone i know, can be always healthy and happy =)

Time never stops, for anyone and we grow older day by day. I had a lot of thinking this year, until hsien yi says that i look like an uncle now lolz, but there are times that we need to grow up and be mature. Our dearest friend, Su Lian had passed away and this incident really gave me a huge impact about life. I realized that life is really short, and things we can do are very limited. I'd already wasted 1 whole year emo-ing about the past, something that already happened and it is the fact, not a dream. So its time to move on ( i know i know.. i should have done this long time ago), i would still miss.. her cause she really means alot to me, but nothing more than that =D As for my studies, i have already chosen my path for the future, i might as well continue my journey and dont look back because life is just about making choices, and to bear with the choices u have made. Never give up on yourself , i believe that 19 years old is going to be.. better =D
Goodbye 18 years old, and good bye my dear friend.

Today, april 20th is the birthday of our dearest friend, miss su lian =(
a year had passed, and so much things have changed.
she may not be here with us. but she definately remains in our heart and memories forever!

Happy Birthday.. my friend..
we all miss u

Dreaming...

Dream.. dream.. dream..
always have this dream about the past of my secondary days.. miss those days so much!

kinda emo lol..

i got this dream maybe because of that day i went to Subang Utama gua lol to take my SPM certificate.. once i step into the SU's gate near the guard house there.. memories started to run through my head, this view.. infront of me all didnt change at all, they look exactly the same! lol i can still rmb the days where i carry my blue bag holding some textbooks walking through all these places.. the canteens, the pondoks where we sell our lolipops, the bookshop where i queue up every starting year , my form 3 kappa class with all my buddies, then the office and pejabat.. lol really reminds me of all the fun i had during secondary.

After i got my cert, i ask the others to go for a walk around the school.. take a look at the NEW hall, and all the "pretty" drawings at the walls ( im sure most of the ex-su's knew abt it lol). then after the hall we pass by my old class.. 5 alpha.. srsly once i reach there.. theres a feeling.. so hard to describe, but for sure its all memories~ i stand at the place near the toilet bhind 5 alpha near the computer lab where tong , seok yeng, carrie, ben , sulian, me, my ex and all the other "members" gather up to chit chat at the morning.. ah i noe the feeling! it feels like they just happened yesterday! yet its already 1 year plus and im going degree soon.. everything happen so fast @ @ bah.. stop the emo, its already part of the history. Everyone has their happy life now lol..

oh theres one place which i dont recognize and i bet most of the ex-su's will not recognize it too XD

THIS IS SMKSU'S MALE TOILET! can u believe it ?! it looks more like Pyramid's toilet = =" damn stone weh.. lol but one thing hasnt change.. the awful smell is still there !! LOL