18 years old is really a tough year for me, most of u may dream of being 18 for u will be legal for so many stuff lol but seriously this is really a year where all the bad things happened. no joke, its like all the unwanted, the worst , the ugliest stuff fall on me. Not to mention going into university life, and campus life is really.. not fun. For those, who are about to leave home for studies, you should apprieciate the times u have with ur family and friends.
This year really had changed my life alot. To be honest, the life im living now is not the one i'd prepared for, at least not the one of me being single. i thought time could heal and pain would fade away, but seems like it's proven wrong as my heart could never heal from the last incident. She really had a deep cut on me. Of course i do hope to get rid of this pain, but i tried, so hard to forget, to replace, but ended up back to square one. u once said that we are still best friends, and i trusted u on that, but to realized that in the end only me who was doing all the job really made me so dissapointed and how much i wished that u never say such words that would make me feels better for the moment but suffers since then. aikz always got emo touching this topic =P
Oh ya, seriously Engineering sucks! it is hard joining a field which u don't really have any interest on it. i was too stupid back then to think that having SLIGHT interest on physic and mathematic would lead u to the world of engineering, and also an engineer would match a lawyer better =S
So as a result, this is me now living the consiquences of my decisions, becoming good friends with velocity, momentum, differentiation and more @ @ But of course engineering is not THAAAAT bad, sometimes still ok la, just that the stress on u is really heavy.. lol seriously all the best to me in the future sia = =" hopefully i dont end up selling Fried kuey tiao at Penang XD
What does birthday means to me anyway, i dont really celebrate it. Of course it does mean alot when ur friends and families come wishing u "happy birthday" and u will reply saying "thx alot", making wish etc etc lol.. but if birthday wish really comes true, i would hope that everyone i know, can be always healthy and happy =)
Time never stops, for anyone and we grow older day by day. I had a lot of thinking this year, until hsien yi says that i look like an uncle now lolz, but there are times that we need to grow up and be mature. Our dearest friend, Su Lian had passed away and this incident really gave me a huge impact about life. I realized that life is really short, and things we can do are very limited. I'd already wasted 1 whole year emo-ing about the past, something that already happened and it is the fact, not a dream. So its time to move on ( i know i know.. i should have done this long time ago), i would still miss.. her cause she really means alot to me, but nothing more than that =D As for my studies, i have already chosen my path for the future, i might as well continue my journey and dont look back because life is just about making choices, and to bear with the choices u have made. Never give up on yourself , i believe that 19 years old is going to be.. better =D
Goodbye 18 years old, and good bye my dear friend.
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